november 11

wallowing...how come its always raining on this day and gloomy?

Remembering the past and the future....

pining for somewhere else

At least its sunny....

Why do I remember the past and not the future?  (thanks for reminding me of this-Hawkings)  I cling....linger.....lurk.....

Its like skidoos....and 'rebel' station-wagons (talk about an oxy-moron )   

here I am....walk don't walk....

I am in limbo...I guess....feeling the pangs of emotion...words flowing out of me...but i can't get them down in time...I lose all feeling....whe n I leave that place...thinking of so much....but so much has left me...its old now and turning into the science projects in my fridge...

I see faces of anger, sadness....why do we do what we do.?  I see myself so many other places...I can hide for a bit but then reality seeks me out...I have to deal...but I also have to live...and be

inner workings

I have had so many inner workings problems lately. I am rather mystified by the whole process of online learning and wonder now the relevance of my field study: What am I hoping to find out? What am I trying to understand? What do I know already? What do I think I know? How will this integration improve my learning and self -assessment?

I feel like a fragmentary moment of a momentary fragment.....